After The Blue Moon

 August 31.

I had originally planned on my experience happening the night of the Blue Moon just because of the astrological significance (yesterday), but things just didn’t line up well with the day’s events. Rather than rush things and force an experience, I’ll wait for a quiet opportunity. The next morning seemed just right. I’ve felt a little off last few days, but this morning I felt pretty good.

My intention this time was just to express gratitude. This has been a good year for me, and I have felt blessed and thankful for things that have gone in my favor, and for my opportunities to network with people that I feel a new spiritual or energetic connection with. I settled into my routine and started with a short meditation session just to help me relax and clear my head. I was reclined on my bed in the dark and quiet with some soft frequency music playing in my headphones.

Just a few good puffs are all it takes. I don’t count them anymore, I just keep taking hits and holding them until I don’t recognize myself anymore; That’s how I know it’s enough.

I was anticipating the typical roller coaster entrance, (you know the feeling of cresting the big climb knowing it’s about to force you back down the other side and there’s nothing you can do except hold on. It’s scary but it’s fun. That feeling) but what I got instead was a very smooth transition. Nice and warm like fresh undies on cold buns. No big rush or spiritual whiplash, I just meshed right into the experience.

The kaleidoscope was of gold bricks decorated with eyes of many different colors. In the center was a doorway that began to open as soon as I recognized it. Ganesh (the Hindu/Buddhist elephant-man deity) was at the door to greet me and said, “Welcome into our world”. I followed him into the doorway. I entered what looked like many tunnels and chambers all lined with gold bricks and jeweled eyes and hieroglyphs. Each eye was a moment in time in someone’s life that could be peered through. As I drifted around admiring the vast size of the place, it reminded me of the inside of an Egyptian burial chamber or a pyramid. They told me they have been watching for a long time. I started to wonder if I would encounter anyone else on my journey, hopefully someone I have met already. That’s when I saw my true mother again. If ‘god’ was a woman, this is her. I admired how beautiful she was and how she was part of everything in this realm. Every gold brick that lined these tunnels- They were not her, she was not them, they were one. They were both individual parts but also part of each other. As it was the same for everything else there, just like it is I would assume in our physical world. She radiated such bright colorful light, but you could look directly into it. I began to thank her for my good fortune. She stopped me and smiled like I had a foolish thought. She said “That’s not why we’re here. You are one of us and our children. We love you”. She then carried me into the infinitely bright colorful light that was her heart. She put me inside and let me bathe in the warm light. I stayed there for the duration of my experience.

When I came to, I had tears in my eyes. That was the one of the most peaceful and loving experience I’ve ever felt.

Inside The Snake

 July 20

It was a hot July afternoon. I was taking a friend to a quiet local hiking spot with the hopes of finding a secluded spot by the creek to dip our feet in both physically and metaphorically. During a previous first attempt I believe there were too many distractions to really settle into the experience, but at least he was now accustomed to the feeling that washes over yourself when the DMT takes hold of you. His second attempt this day was not much more successful than the last, and I’m beginning to see that some people might think they want it or are ready, but maybe deep inside they are just not willing to relinquish their self-control in exchange for a chance to see the universe within themselves; It can be a scary feeling having to face yourself honestly.

The creek was very low so our options for finding an area with moving water were limited.

While hiking I was thinking about the act of physical activity and the challenge that came with it, and how I thought it was important to incorporate that into your process. Whether alone or with a partner, I feel like there’s a certain level of ego that must be let go when you’re doing something physically challenging at any level. You must force yourself out of your comfort zone and experience your own limitations. This was not by any means what I would consider a challenging hike, but it was the pace I set that made me feel weak. There is also something to be said about the endorphins released during exercise that help with the relaxation and meditation that would (should) come prior to a DMT experience.

We found a rocky portion of the creek that was still moving, yet not enough to be a hazard. It was just ankle deep and enough to cool our feet off while grounding. I found a comfortable sandy spot to lean against a log and let my feet lay in the water. I settled into my routine and got ready for blast off.

The vision began with a kaleidoscope of infinite circles within circles. I could feel the heaviness of the trip pressing on my body and the kaleidoscope circles became coils of a snake, and I felt like I was being squeezed. Within the center of the coils came the head of the snake with its mouth wide open. It was enormous. I did not feel threatened by the squeezing, nor by the snakes open mouth. The mouth was a doorway. I decided to walk inside. Waiting for me within the snake was a man who seemed too plain and modern for a DMT experience, he was very out of place. He just simply wanted to hang out with me. I could see him motioning to me and moving his mouth to communicate with me. It was a one-sided conversation, and I couldn’t hear any of it. The feeling that came over me as the experience was ending was that I share myself and help too willingly with people who might not appreciate or value my efforts. My time here is not infinite, and I should be more selective with my time and energy.

The man waved goodbye, and I walked out of the snake. Our parting was very casual. The vision ended quickly, and I opened my eyes.