The following is a record of my psychedelic journey, and lessons learned. If you want to read about my journey in the order in which I experienced it, please scroll down to the first post. While psychedelic “drugs” are often stigmatized, and misused for recreational purposes, I strongly believe in their therapeutic use. The potential exists for a significantly positive emotional and spiritual awakening, and likewise a frightening or damaging experience if used recklessly. Psychedelics should be approached with respect, caution, and good intentions. When used in the proper setting it can be a very rewarding experience. As with any other form of therapy, the real work must be undertaken by the individual. As such, a substance like DMT might only show you a path to take or a way to reflect on what is happening in your life – It is the individual’s choice to interpret and act upon the thoughts, feelings, and images they are presented with. The big question about what a DMT experience is cannot simply be put into words, let alone a few sentences. My own ‘trip’ is a real experience that I witnessed personally. But I’m often questioning what it is exactly that I am communicating with. Is it my own subconscious that is wiser than my outward self? Is there an intelligent energy in our world that people have forgotten how to have a relationship with? I don’t know. What I do know is it requires an open, willing, and flexible mind, and a willingness to accept what you are presented with without pulling away, but instead have the curiosity to keep asking and looking further into the trip. Disclaimer: I am not a professional, nor a doctor, nor a therapist of any kind. I do not distribute or administer any substance to anyone but myself. These are my own personal experiences.

Thursday, August 31, 2023

After The Blue Moon

 August 31.

I had originally planned on my experience happening the night of the Blue Moon just because of the astrological significance (yesterday), but things just didn’t line up well with the day’s events. Rather than rush things and force an experience, I’ll wait for a quiet opportunity. The next morning seemed just right. I’ve felt a little off last few days, but this morning I felt pretty good.

My intention this time was just to express gratitude. This has been a good year for me, and I have felt blessed and thankful for things that have gone in my favor, and for my opportunities to network with people that I feel a new spiritual or energetic connection with. I settled into my routine and started with a short meditation session just to help me relax and clear my head. I was reclined on my bed in the dark and quiet with some soft frequency music playing in my headphones.

Just a few good puffs are all it takes. I don’t count them anymore, I just keep taking hits and holding them until I don’t recognize myself anymore; That’s how I know it’s enough.

I was anticipating the typical roller coaster entrance, (you know the feeling of cresting the big climb knowing it’s about to force you back down the other side and there’s nothing you can do except hold on. It’s scary but it’s fun. That feeling) but what I got instead was a very smooth transition. Nice and warm like fresh undies on cold buns. No big rush or spiritual whiplash, I just meshed right into the experience.

The kaleidoscope was of gold bricks decorated with eyes of many different colors. In the center was a doorway that began to open as soon as I recognized it. Ganesh (the Hindu/Buddhist elephant-man deity) was at the door to greet me and said, “Welcome into our world”. I followed him into the doorway. I entered what looked like many tunnels and chambers all lined with gold bricks and jeweled eyes and hieroglyphs. Each eye was a moment in time in someone’s life that could be peered through. As I drifted around admiring the vast size of the place, it reminded me of the inside of an Egyptian burial chamber or a pyramid. They told me they have been watching for a long time. I started to wonder if I would encounter anyone else on my journey, hopefully someone I have met already. That’s when I saw my true mother again. If ‘god’ was a woman, this is her. I admired how beautiful she was and how she was part of everything in this realm. Every gold brick that lined these tunnels- They were not her, she was not them, they were one. They were both individual parts but also part of each other. As it was the same for everything else there, just like it is I would assume in our physical world. She radiated such bright colorful light, but you could look directly into it. I began to thank her for my good fortune. She stopped me and smiled like I had a foolish thought. She said “That’s not why we’re here. You are one of us and our children. We love you”. She then carried me into the infinitely bright colorful light that was her heart. She put me inside and let me bathe in the warm light. I stayed there for the duration of my experience.

When I came to, I had tears in my eyes. That was the one of the most peaceful and loving experience I’ve ever felt.


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