The following is a record of my psychedelic journey, and lessons learned. If you want to read about my journey in the order in which I experienced it, please scroll down to the first post. While psychedelic “drugs” are often stigmatized, and misused for recreational purposes, I strongly believe in their therapeutic use. The potential exists for a significantly positive emotional and spiritual awakening, and likewise a frightening or damaging experience if used recklessly. Psychedelics should be approached with respect, caution, and good intentions. When used in the proper setting it can be a very rewarding experience. As with any other form of therapy, the real work must be undertaken by the individual. As such, a substance like DMT might only show you a path to take or a way to reflect on what is happening in your life – It is the individual’s choice to interpret and act upon the thoughts, feelings, and images they are presented with. The big question about what a DMT experience is cannot simply be put into words, let alone a few sentences. My own ‘trip’ is a real experience that I witnessed personally. But I’m often questioning what it is exactly that I am communicating with. Is it my own subconscious that is wiser than my outward self? Is there an intelligent energy in our world that people have forgotten how to have a relationship with? I don’t know. What I do know is it requires an open, willing, and flexible mind, and a willingness to accept what you are presented with without pulling away, but instead have the curiosity to keep asking and looking further into the trip. Disclaimer: I am not a professional, nor a doctor, nor a therapist of any kind. I do not distribute or administer any substance to anyone but myself. These are my own personal experiences.

Tuesday, September 26, 2023

To The Top!

September 21

I think winter is coming early this year. Fall is here like the flip of a switch. We made a deceivingly challenging 2 day hunt covering roughly 15 miles on foot and totaling around 5000ft change in elevation round trip. That night was about 10 degrees colder than the forecast, so I didn’t sleep much. The following morning we made a short hike to a meadow and collected some much needed water. Everything was still covered in frost. The sun was just beginning to crest the peaks to our east and the warmth was very welcomed. All the autumn colors in the meadow lit up like neon. I was so drained from the freezing night I couldn’t help but disregard the hunt and just sleep in the warm grass.

When I was finally conscious and somewhat useful, we agreed to have a little spiritual journey. I always say when you’ve been physically humbled and your guard is down, it’s a good time because you don’t have to negotiate your ego during blast off. Besides, it was a good excuse to lay back and close my eyes again. 

As the vision began, the swirling kaleidoscope of colors became a group of pastel colored Teddy Bears, Pink, blue, orange and yellow.

The Teddy Bears were making strange hand gestures and looking through their fingers in such a way as to examine me. They kept moving closer and closer. It wasn’t weird or uncomfortable, it just felt like they were checking me out to make sure everything was good, but they were very serious about their job. Behind them was another Teddy Bear, the yellow one, but he looked different. He kept making faces and mocking the other bear’s gestures. I felt myself giggle a little and the other Bear started making very exaggerated karate chops and punching the air. His alternating punches started pointing to the sky and he was laughing and yelling to “To the Top!”.  Then the Bears passed me by and the funny one fell apart into a bunch of pieces.  

As I was fading out, I felt like the funny one was just trying to remind me not to be intimidated by people who take themselves too seriously. And even when you feel like you are being judged or criticized, not to take yourself too seriously either. 

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