October 10.
I haven’t done a double journey for a few months, and
every experience since has felt too short and incomplete. This morning the
house was quiet, so I wanted to dive in a couple times to satisfy that curious
hunger. I prepped with some nice meditation music and deep breathing. My
intention was to remind myself of my first lesson being of love and that I
should lead my decisions based on that. Once I felt relaxed enough to go in, I
switched my music to some aboriginal didgeridoo as I’ve never tripped on that
before.
As soon as I felt like I had taken enough hits, I did one more. I closed my eyes, laid my head back and the colors began to
set in. It looked like I was surrounded by a bunch of Christmas lights. The
lights began to move toward each other and became a shaman. He had a big
colorful hat and a big fat nose. He had a staff in one hand that he started to
shake, and a ball of light in the other; He studied me for a minute. The shaman
transformed into a dragon made of fire. I was told “Do not break eye contact”.
The dragon began charging at me from several different directions. I felt like
I might be run over a couple times, but I did not look away. The dragon then
faded away into a rainbow and these elves appeared and told me it was a test to
see if I was brave enough to be here. Apparently I had passed the test.
As the vision began to fade out, I could see the elves
playing the music I was listening to, but they were using squeaky toys and
little horns instead of a didgeridoo. Never underestimate the elf’s ability to
make light of your trip, they never fail.
I savored that experience for several minutes and let the
body high subside. Now that I had permission to be there, I was going back in.
As the next journey began, I was greeted by a person made
of stars and planets, but surrounding their cosmic body looked like feathers.
They were making a sad face at me. I asked them why they were sad, but it was
as if I was asking myself (that’s a difficult part to describe with words).
They showed me the outline shape of a man’s body, and it was surrounded by
stars. Inside the body shape looked like infinite darkness. I suddenly
understood that this body was an empty vessel, it looked like it was made of
glass. They put me inside this empty body and told me they had given me
everything.
The next message I got was two-fold; The emptiness represents
my own unhappiness, the void within myself that only I am capable of filling. Not
that I’m entirely unhappy, but I think it was more representative of the human
condition whereas we are constantly working and searching through difficulties
to find happiness. It also represented my higher purpose which was to fill this
body with light. I realized that I was the spirit that occupied the body, and that
my body was not mine, but it was part of my journey. And with pure love in my
actions, my body will be filled with light.
Once my spirit had filled my body, they led me to a
ceremony that felt like I was the guest of honor. It looked like I was in a forest,
and I was surrounded by many cosmic entities. I was laid down in the center of
this ceremony and they began to sing to me. They were singing my cosmic self to
sleep so that my body could wake up in the physical world.